2009年11月3日 星期二
let me music myself to humiliation disgrace and death that's what I want then I can study my Buddhism and meditate and so on
I'll be an arhant, frightening, but I leave the matrix alone if it can be destoryed, I actually like it, especially the hot pretty girls, but that's not my point in the sense, its part of the path, but not the goal or destination or what not. We act without thinking is what I'm saying going by gut intuition feeling random whatever unclear full of fear and uncertainties and we start to let material emerge from who knows where, the people creating problems in this world including me, c'mon, we can work this out together if you regard me yes as a trustworthy feedback person, but never as a leader, decider, we will discuss this, I'll mediate, I'm good at mediating for most fail at this task due to disgusting sentiments of narcissism, but those are people Bodhisattvas have to save one day, the matrix is good, just full of dangerous trapdoors or what not, Buddha's point is the trapdoors not the world else, why do I still have an external world by this point after he has attained his enlightenment? Jesus didn't destroy the matrix and in fact said God created the world from God therefore good.
If we need all to chill, buy Marsalis's Big Train
We'll have fun
"I'll always be around"
I'm either drained or lazy so yeah, I'm always free to help us all deal with our mess
emperhood is not stellarly defined
nobody has to listen to me
I'll emperor in Buddha's way
He was the universal emperor supposedly, but resisted his karma to be awakened to save and help rather than dominate and enjoy for he probably if he were like me, want to be loved and liked and make people happy, entertaining people, or else, his miracles serve to inspire rather than power and dominate right? That was a compassionate decision he made, without deep love cultivated through God's penetrating influence upon the creature's psyche, no one could karmically be ready for a life to Buddhahood or universal emperorhood
but thank you all for this trip
your help is owed with a lot of karmic debt I have to repay back
meanwhile
music and computer game is how I persecute time right now
bye
If we need all to chill, buy Marsalis's Big Train
We'll have fun
"I'll always be around"
I'm either drained or lazy so yeah, I'm always free to help us all deal with our mess
emperhood is not stellarly defined
nobody has to listen to me
I'll emperor in Buddha's way
He was the universal emperor supposedly, but resisted his karma to be awakened to save and help rather than dominate and enjoy for he probably if he were like me, want to be loved and liked and make people happy, entertaining people, or else, his miracles serve to inspire rather than power and dominate right? That was a compassionate decision he made, without deep love cultivated through God's penetrating influence upon the creature's psyche, no one could karmically be ready for a life to Buddhahood or universal emperorhood
but thank you all for this trip
your help is owed with a lot of karmic debt I have to repay back
meanwhile
music and computer game is how I persecute time right now
bye
the old people and pride issues
yes you studied your collective unconscious and personal unconscious and have looked at your anus dechiphering its meaning 3 billion to the nth degree or what not
so you have the power and freedom to kill me
nobody in this world wants me okay
you don't even need my only girl to kill who can
so why are we interfering with my venting anyways
actually you only unconsciously interfered with it
I care only about myself in an egocentric way but you're unconscious modus operandi you psychologically need to take pride in says can't risk can't take a chance we have gone this far we need to silence and won't go back
this is what I'll tell my peers: just go do whatever
I am just an animal, sex food craving
you don't know how I have lived the rest of my life prior to this rooting in my heart
work me and I'll die
Protect me and I'll die and live
just what is death but loss of pride?
that is the root of panic fear what you are well, better-than-the-Buddha, orchestrating
Buddha can use language like I just did employing a tact to move you all, so, I am not the one I am at best moral rather than talented and competent
I need support, cold without love economic support to have commercially functioning talent
Our universal problem is making conclusions in our minds too quickly
if you want to know how I can know all this, this comes from intuitive material, aka developed fantasy, in living with minimal repression, repression is for safety, a necessary measure, but not the aim or point or the pleasure the ideal or the goal it is just a handy means
detailed study of intuition can be found in Asana's work and is briefly expounded by Chogyam Trungpa in Medtitation in Action
don't ever assume I play tact or that you are admitting that you are wrong when I reveal material that I know you more than you know yourself or that my knowledge psychologically proves to you or me that I am superior to you I am not I don't have your developed techniques you have just repressed too much such that your self-awareness of the basis you make decision is completely outside of clear self-awareness
man ye qi bin just can't admit he could be wrong that an authority figure could be wrong
if you are wrong try to right it, grow up man or the atomic bomb will strike you
alright Uncle Sam, march in but let me be a singer drummer and maybe one day trumpeter or pianist I'm too lazy man those pieces I worked for but that's all the energy I've got.
bye bye
for now
Richard Chen, corporate artist
yes you studied your collective unconscious and personal unconscious and have looked at your anus dechiphering its meaning 3 billion to the nth degree or what not
so you have the power and freedom to kill me
nobody in this world wants me okay
you don't even need my only girl to kill who can
so why are we interfering with my venting anyways
actually you only unconsciously interfered with it
I care only about myself in an egocentric way but you're unconscious modus operandi you psychologically need to take pride in says can't risk can't take a chance we have gone this far we need to silence and won't go back
this is what I'll tell my peers: just go do whatever
I am just an animal, sex food craving
you don't know how I have lived the rest of my life prior to this rooting in my heart
work me and I'll die
Protect me and I'll die and live
just what is death but loss of pride?
that is the root of panic fear what you are well, better-than-the-Buddha, orchestrating
Buddha can use language like I just did employing a tact to move you all, so, I am not the one I am at best moral rather than talented and competent
I need support, cold without love economic support to have commercially functioning talent
Our universal problem is making conclusions in our minds too quickly
if you want to know how I can know all this, this comes from intuitive material, aka developed fantasy, in living with minimal repression, repression is for safety, a necessary measure, but not the aim or point or the pleasure the ideal or the goal it is just a handy means
detailed study of intuition can be found in Asana's work and is briefly expounded by Chogyam Trungpa in Medtitation in Action
don't ever assume I play tact or that you are admitting that you are wrong when I reveal material that I know you more than you know yourself or that my knowledge psychologically proves to you or me that I am superior to you I am not I don't have your developed techniques you have just repressed too much such that your self-awareness of the basis you make decision is completely outside of clear self-awareness
man ye qi bin just can't admit he could be wrong that an authority figure could be wrong
if you are wrong try to right it, grow up man or the atomic bomb will strike you
alright Uncle Sam, march in but let me be a singer drummer and maybe one day trumpeter or pianist I'm too lazy man those pieces I worked for but that's all the energy I've got.
bye bye
for now
Richard Chen, corporate artist
Mombutuervaavamonseishdetaroavamonseshdetaro
I'm now the one who is misunderstood but the knower now
I had once give knowledge of myself to others
Now I have the power knowledge over of others therefore can rest and do what I need to and if someone tries to make a conclusion about me to offend me, sorry, that approach isn't regular, now is a good moment for self-humility and self, deliberate humbling, no need to make me a big deal to feel better, for the first time, become self-aware, self-awareness, knowing oneself or thyself is vipassana and the way. Good luck hunting.
Usbeteavamonse Irvamoavamonse Susbitoervalobre Avamonseishdetaro
Yes I know what is now going on the older generation between both east and west are collborating against ME now okay go be insecure and just don't kill me for YOU CAN
Jesus, what's gonna happen if he scratches his ass in public? Other people's superego will despise me therefore I will lose influence, you know this don't you
Do I seek to propagate anything
Nope my purpose here is to vent express that's all
Just venting
chill
fuckheads
fuck you all
bye
I had once give knowledge of myself to others
Now I have the power knowledge over of others therefore can rest and do what I need to and if someone tries to make a conclusion about me to offend me, sorry, that approach isn't regular, now is a good moment for self-humility and self, deliberate humbling, no need to make me a big deal to feel better, for the first time, become self-aware, self-awareness, knowing oneself or thyself is vipassana and the way. Good luck hunting.
Usbeteavamonse Irvamoavamonse Susbitoervalobre Avamonseishdetaro
Yes I know what is now going on the older generation between both east and west are collborating against ME now okay go be insecure and just don't kill me for YOU CAN
Jesus, what's gonna happen if he scratches his ass in public? Other people's superego will despise me therefore I will lose influence, you know this don't you
Do I seek to propagate anything
Nope my purpose here is to vent express that's all
Just venting
chill
fuckheads
fuck you all
bye
I am now a difficult to understand
easy to misunderstand
strangely behaving difficult to define something amongst something c'mon man stop making conclusions to move on do what you WANT to do rather than trying to get rid of what not through intellect go by feel, for once, make you're apologies, abandon your polite conventions in interaction, the rules of engagements, or is this still propagated for face in America too? Man, I'm saying my om mani padme hums.
strangely behaving difficult to define something amongst something c'mon man stop making conclusions to move on do what you WANT to do rather than trying to get rid of what not through intellect go by feel, for once, make you're apologies, abandon your polite conventions in interaction, the rules of engagements, or is this still propagated for face in America too? Man, I'm saying my om mani padme hums.
To Hear, I win, therefore it could be said through a recorded file and have the same effect
which is why computer game Shin Sangomusou 4 Special had its psychological consequences.
Eliminative materialism clears the mind or head up by starting with ontology if this means a list of what exists, an inventory of what exists, that is to say id est i.e.
that's why I wanted to learn latin to express myself such that people don't know too much about me where I can bypass monitoring by superego forces or superegos. Ontology to my experience is also the starting point of understanding in the sense of asking questions to understand. What is qi? seems a good question to understand qi gong.
datum, list, milieu (self conscious fear of consequence of anger rejection that this would be rejected that this is out of place a meangingless item in relation with the rest of the items of the list, series sequence progression painful compulsion to go down the list lest I don't survive with good impression, damn, matrix necessity to find out who I really am in core yay a movie was made for me or everything really is a Pure Land for me?), inventory, there we go, fa, free-association, leads to digging out of that desired self through minimal repression if the absence of repression, work for that freedom to be unrepressed when what civilization demands repressed is habitually repressed then one is allowed freedom to let the music just flow out without effort without ego controlling or grasping that is like losing control, ah, what else will I do, sex! so therefore I must tame sex to avoid death...this is one reason
religion is just support, my writing style is in leaps and not steps and my girlfriend plus many other people operate or need steps to be convinced but intellectual maturity for me requires me to identify the steps like Socrates does to truly enlighten convince people
If I need Buddhism, have it, if I don't like Christianity with its full range of associations, then boo hoo nope, but that is so easy, but weak. People take it and say, see, I'm a good person for being the type with a religion, uh, believing for sake of salvation, no work no effort, personal rather than universal salvation "it is God's business to save people" is weak for the inner self wants to save and love all and have all that is an id impulse. First-hand study rather than regurgitating other's words first-hand study produces original words and genuine authentic understanding. Motivation to understand the meaning of certain phenomena to have understanding ground truth liberation rising above of suffering from ignorance. As I write, I believe I shall attain to enlightenment, I believe my words are stronger than that of Pema Chodron for I am more of a scholar with a materialist style use of words whereas she insists let us just use language in a way that is that of a genuine self, a real self, she'd probably say, pretentious self, phony self, I'm like, what the heck is that supposed to mean, certain institutional standards need to be moderately pressured to be maintained people need my relaxation and idleness like a meditator to write in a way that is clear to the point hitting the mark punchy relevant to the issue at hand or else it is like we are going through the motions to maintain an impression moving on to more interesting thing like socializing drinking having sex, man, I'm a republican in heart wanting control resistance institutional standard no fluidity of heart but am I not a lot more dependable and stronger and more supple? I think the middle way or Zhong Yong if you find Middle Way cheezy is the answer so we say it shall be white is democratic party and black republican and gray is the one party the united state...American's to the Orient's attitude or opinion are overly emotional, making too much of a big deal and fuss out of small problems perhaps but the sensitivity of Americans make life so much more good convenient and allows lazy people like me to live well and produces things those proud Orients crave...man, we have to find some way if there is a tug-o-war.
anytime the psychological possibility to insist emerges, that is republicanism, anytime one acts without inhibition, that's democratic what not...too much repression insistence leads to ulcers and projection of an image of falsity of forced expression personality thinking articulation should be clear through an empirical style of awareness akin to the spirit of vipassana, which is a democratic faculty prizing freedom and novelty rather than tradition and familiarity by the way this is not an analysis an expression which will make a big deal out of all of this, look, I ain't a saint with all your answers, to most of your problem I will only tell you "I don't know" because consciousness, mine, has little access to the full range of material you'll need for a comprehensive or complete answer to your question with all the details included, so, I'll do tantric transmission in improvised mantra form--ervatma sennex.
Yay, I'm seeing the connection to everything, but the main message is--don't make a big deal through emotions out of anything including this...Frege's requirement? Live with minimal repression and that is the middle way which is not define to define it is insisting is making a big deal out of it which may have its necessary circumstance but what does this mean anyway? Articulation of my mode of being is not, no, I have no mode defined set predetermined modus operandi save an subconscious one or something operating outside of consciousness's awareness most of the time. What it means, save a subconscious one is I have no reference point that I go to before I act such that I act as if I have the intent to be predictable, I live flowingly, and if I be emotional here, I'd say like a flowing stream or river, so the orient is too vague intellectually and overly narcissitically poetic...hahaha...look at my beautiful characters and radicals and calligraphy, but it takes me three hours to write I love you where Americans give a look at each other and start fucking right away. I'd say Americans are more enlightened at how to live. That truly is the meeting of mind. American spirit is a personality type that can emerge in the Orient environment, usually regarded as blasphenous outcast--oh how DARE you Merryl Streep style.
Man everything is so grave and serious the atomic bomb is like a pride issue here rather than a functional one, that was a 5 billion dollar secret I just disclosed, I hope I don't get executed. Now I feel like Borat, man, they have no association or intuition or understanding or comprehension, retarded inferior sensates. Hail intuition which is the liberated flowing stream of mind of accessible through writing with minimal censorship/repression. That's the way. The authorities know and want what I do here but propagate a mode and way for sake of oppression liberty to oppress securing their little nest without even cute perching birds man they are infants who want the whole world to conform to their own little way...ubi solitudinem faciunt pacem apellant.
Oh they must think I'm spying for the Americans, oh the mentioning of this must be a sophisticated complicated tact. There is a figure in the traditional literature and novel here of the Romance of the Three Kingdoms of the figure called zhugeliang, don't take this thing as serious big deal knowledge, no self-humbling or humility needed, who operates like I do, free, frightening the controlling authorities, do they even know they are controlling probably not, once they start to have the intelligence to control, they already are not the controlling type
so why do I sell myself to the Americans, for they want to take what I have which karmically is impossible in 100% only 20% but I have to yield at most 3%, and then kill me after that so I give our way and their way out at the same time until they occultly set me free but I don't care too much about much.
signing off, saying this to whomever, Ervatma Sennex
Eliminative materialism clears the mind or head up by starting with ontology if this means a list of what exists, an inventory of what exists, that is to say id est i.e.
that's why I wanted to learn latin to express myself such that people don't know too much about me where I can bypass monitoring by superego forces or superegos. Ontology to my experience is also the starting point of understanding in the sense of asking questions to understand. What is qi? seems a good question to understand qi gong.
datum, list, milieu (self conscious fear of consequence of anger rejection that this would be rejected that this is out of place a meangingless item in relation with the rest of the items of the list, series sequence progression painful compulsion to go down the list lest I don't survive with good impression, damn, matrix necessity to find out who I really am in core yay a movie was made for me or everything really is a Pure Land for me?), inventory, there we go, fa, free-association, leads to digging out of that desired self through minimal repression if the absence of repression, work for that freedom to be unrepressed when what civilization demands repressed is habitually repressed then one is allowed freedom to let the music just flow out without effort without ego controlling or grasping that is like losing control, ah, what else will I do, sex! so therefore I must tame sex to avoid death...this is one reason
religion is just support, my writing style is in leaps and not steps and my girlfriend plus many other people operate or need steps to be convinced but intellectual maturity for me requires me to identify the steps like Socrates does to truly enlighten convince people
If I need Buddhism, have it, if I don't like Christianity with its full range of associations, then boo hoo nope, but that is so easy, but weak. People take it and say, see, I'm a good person for being the type with a religion, uh, believing for sake of salvation, no work no effort, personal rather than universal salvation "it is God's business to save people" is weak for the inner self wants to save and love all and have all that is an id impulse. First-hand study rather than regurgitating other's words first-hand study produces original words and genuine authentic understanding. Motivation to understand the meaning of certain phenomena to have understanding ground truth liberation rising above of suffering from ignorance. As I write, I believe I shall attain to enlightenment, I believe my words are stronger than that of Pema Chodron for I am more of a scholar with a materialist style use of words whereas she insists let us just use language in a way that is that of a genuine self, a real self, she'd probably say, pretentious self, phony self, I'm like, what the heck is that supposed to mean, certain institutional standards need to be moderately pressured to be maintained people need my relaxation and idleness like a meditator to write in a way that is clear to the point hitting the mark punchy relevant to the issue at hand or else it is like we are going through the motions to maintain an impression moving on to more interesting thing like socializing drinking having sex, man, I'm a republican in heart wanting control resistance institutional standard no fluidity of heart but am I not a lot more dependable and stronger and more supple? I think the middle way or Zhong Yong if you find Middle Way cheezy is the answer so we say it shall be white is democratic party and black republican and gray is the one party the united state...American's to the Orient's attitude or opinion are overly emotional, making too much of a big deal and fuss out of small problems perhaps but the sensitivity of Americans make life so much more good convenient and allows lazy people like me to live well and produces things those proud Orients crave...man, we have to find some way if there is a tug-o-war.
anytime the psychological possibility to insist emerges, that is republicanism, anytime one acts without inhibition, that's democratic what not...too much repression insistence leads to ulcers and projection of an image of falsity of forced expression personality thinking articulation should be clear through an empirical style of awareness akin to the spirit of vipassana, which is a democratic faculty prizing freedom and novelty rather than tradition and familiarity by the way this is not an analysis an expression which will make a big deal out of all of this, look, I ain't a saint with all your answers, to most of your problem I will only tell you "I don't know" because consciousness, mine, has little access to the full range of material you'll need for a comprehensive or complete answer to your question with all the details included, so, I'll do tantric transmission in improvised mantra form--ervatma sennex.
Yay, I'm seeing the connection to everything, but the main message is--don't make a big deal through emotions out of anything including this...Frege's requirement? Live with minimal repression and that is the middle way which is not define to define it is insisting is making a big deal out of it which may have its necessary circumstance but what does this mean anyway? Articulation of my mode of being is not, no, I have no mode defined set predetermined modus operandi save an subconscious one or something operating outside of consciousness's awareness most of the time. What it means, save a subconscious one is I have no reference point that I go to before I act such that I act as if I have the intent to be predictable, I live flowingly, and if I be emotional here, I'd say like a flowing stream or river, so the orient is too vague intellectually and overly narcissitically poetic...hahaha...look at my beautiful characters and radicals and calligraphy, but it takes me three hours to write I love you where Americans give a look at each other and start fucking right away. I'd say Americans are more enlightened at how to live. That truly is the meeting of mind. American spirit is a personality type that can emerge in the Orient environment, usually regarded as blasphenous outcast--oh how DARE you Merryl Streep style.
Man everything is so grave and serious the atomic bomb is like a pride issue here rather than a functional one, that was a 5 billion dollar secret I just disclosed, I hope I don't get executed. Now I feel like Borat, man, they have no association or intuition or understanding or comprehension, retarded inferior sensates. Hail intuition which is the liberated flowing stream of mind of accessible through writing with minimal censorship/repression. That's the way. The authorities know and want what I do here but propagate a mode and way for sake of oppression liberty to oppress securing their little nest without even cute perching birds man they are infants who want the whole world to conform to their own little way...ubi solitudinem faciunt pacem apellant.
Oh they must think I'm spying for the Americans, oh the mentioning of this must be a sophisticated complicated tact. There is a figure in the traditional literature and novel here of the Romance of the Three Kingdoms of the figure called zhugeliang, don't take this thing as serious big deal knowledge, no self-humbling or humility needed, who operates like I do, free, frightening the controlling authorities, do they even know they are controlling probably not, once they start to have the intelligence to control, they already are not the controlling type
so why do I sell myself to the Americans, for they want to take what I have which karmically is impossible in 100% only 20% but I have to yield at most 3%, and then kill me after that so I give our way and their way out at the same time until they occultly set me free but I don't care too much about much.
signing off, saying this to whomever, Ervatma Sennex
Tantric secret to music
spontaneity--go by feel
play sing do from one's guts, core center, depth semen everything play it out give it all out live and (on) the edge and just do it---RISK!! after a few karmic mistakes, perfection flows by nature until fear's inhibition, power you don't even know you have will emerge like everything else in this earth...typhoons!
play sing do from one's guts, core center, depth semen everything play it out give it all out live and (on) the edge and just do it---RISK!! after a few karmic mistakes, perfection flows by nature until fear's inhibition, power you don't even know you have will emerge like everything else in this earth...typhoons!
Two Root Ideas on Pride and Dignity
So I care about these things for they make you look good and sound good and all your expressions are aesthetically perfect--be yourself-be truthful-live the way of truth--do the action of truth-just be, relax and be who you are, this is how to live.
2009年11月2日 星期一
If someone can teach me the details of Shamatha while under risperidone tablet 2mg, please post something directing me to the info or expound upon it in a reply.
I tend to approach things philosophically without no assumptions/presumptions and seek to have the most vivid experience of it before trying to enhance or increase consciousness of the experience through rational processing of clear, precise articulation in words.
I like people always to make fun of me and point to flaws in my expressions, that is always conducive to my own growth. Folks, have fun.
Richard
I tend to approach things philosophically without no assumptions/presumptions and seek to have the most vivid experience of it before trying to enhance or increase consciousness of the experience through rational processing of clear, precise articulation in words.
I like people always to make fun of me and point to flaws in my expressions, that is always conducive to my own growth. Folks, have fun.
Richard
Freudian Free-associative Depth Psychology Self-analysis
I frequently wish to "talk cure", self-analyze my idiosyncratic emotional states, fears, beliefs away. The term "rational" to me means little in my psyche. Perhaps prostrating "in the air" to this notion would surrender a part of one's ego to it and therefore its inherent strength would live in one's psyche is one of the discoveries along my "groundless" state.
Many people have done much work to make psychological pertinent issues be resolved, like the design of computer games like Shin Sango Musou 4 (Special) is also a platform for increasing the strength of the ego, merging psychotherapy with entertainment--so much better in comparison with the Colosseum.
My people, the Taiwanese, desert me in attention reciprocation and therefore I am left here to ask for attention in public, without which consciousness would be lost and death awaits, for I cannot live out my id and expect it to be accepted here in Taiwan--for it has only one most-commonly unacceptable will--the will to express love or affection, but most directly, sexual intercourse with women.
My clear-cut style of self-expression is by nature the Daoist type although if Lao-Zi used any poetic mode of expression he would have released narcissistic sentiments and therefore have expressed himself in a way that is not in consonance with my adult personality.
I need to offend the superego who will belate me if I cross the psychic line of fear but that mode of living in extreme suffocating repression leads to respiratory problems, depression...my God, I am persecuted by my own superego figure...I even have to type it out in euphemism, Golly, this is when my words get emotional, I know its okay to express emotions, but I need to maintain my ego to a certain necessary degree.
I feel if I express myself in writing more and more often, my sense of self-worth would improve a lot more.
Kelsey Rinella, besides more emotive support from David Cornberg, is a special pragmatic and funny person whose personality is completely agreeable yet without narcissism...artists tend to be narcissistic, including me, in some sense, but I express thoughts or "the self" when I "toot ma hone" (trumpet, soy trompetisto). As of now, I am expressing myself with both subject and predicate without superego objection/rejection...sigh...my life is so painful and difficult that I can't accept my life as a kid or rather, my father wouldn't accept this--I want to watch porn...that was a joke.
"If you want to be a man, date real women". Hey, man, Soy Buddhisto too, I get shy, plus, I care about anuttara samyak-sambodhi. The truth is, only starting at the Mahayana level when perfect self-control has developed on the impulses that need to be controlled or tamed can one spontaneously relate with other beings in anyway one desires, where desire means compassion or Christian love. The desire to have lust over a woman in a negative psyche-TV-set to deny the fact that one loves the woman and therefore "does not wish to kill her through sexual intercourse" is both anti-Hinayana and anti-Mahayana in my opinion.
I have the secret to runny nose: crossing the line of fear from superego data of when the superego will be crossed. If I calculate more, there are reasons not to propagate this info but I need to publicly broadcast myself while I'm still on anti-psychotics. I am just trying to be frank here.
By the way, if anyone is an expert on this, I have experienced an unusual phenomena that other's will's taking effect as a phenomena can be warded off with accumulated semen/sperm/jing, like Shaolin feats through extreme sexual energy, where anti-psych's supposed effect from experience of "memes/information" only takes place under weak sexual repression state...I wonder if every effect the drug has is due to beliefs about it that is grasped with strong psychic energy or ......placebo effect taking place where a stronger energy-center person informs the patient, this will work, non-placebos actually have no inherent effect I believe, it is all energy-karma...who can clarify this up for me?
I became the emperor of my place through being a savior with only the intent to be an attractive person to attractive women who need to delude themselves that they are relating with respect-worthy people that they are not the type that relate with interesting and fun people, Jesus Christ, though beautiful in the asura women style way of the lesser sort, can't we relax and be? I suppose that is harder than making those delicious things that are here in Taiwan...oh, magnificent, simply splendid.
If you produce something, if people keep looking or give it attention, your life will be extended, hence Buddhas propagate their dharma, name, and so on, for sake of survival, perhaps not in the physical form. Eternal life is connected with eternal love, eternal survival, eternal attention, at least for me, so that's that. Chao. Or the need for attention to survive transcended where nirmanakaya is free to be abandoned.
I used to be open-minded only to David Cornberg, but now I have to practice Pema Chodron's "open mind, open heart"--yay, love.
Signing off, Richard in less fear-based-other-conscious language than Julie and Julia (italics deliberately ignored for sake of style of tantric mode of expression, that the emotive aspect of the ignoring has meaning in experiencing not the knowledge herein contained but also the person that articulated the knowledge).
Many people have done much work to make psychological pertinent issues be resolved, like the design of computer games like Shin Sango Musou 4 (Special) is also a platform for increasing the strength of the ego, merging psychotherapy with entertainment--so much better in comparison with the Colosseum.
My people, the Taiwanese, desert me in attention reciprocation and therefore I am left here to ask for attention in public, without which consciousness would be lost and death awaits, for I cannot live out my id and expect it to be accepted here in Taiwan--for it has only one most-commonly unacceptable will--the will to express love or affection, but most directly, sexual intercourse with women.
My clear-cut style of self-expression is by nature the Daoist type although if Lao-Zi used any poetic mode of expression he would have released narcissistic sentiments and therefore have expressed himself in a way that is not in consonance with my adult personality.
I need to offend the superego who will belate me if I cross the psychic line of fear but that mode of living in extreme suffocating repression leads to respiratory problems, depression...my God, I am persecuted by my own superego figure...I even have to type it out in euphemism, Golly, this is when my words get emotional, I know its okay to express emotions, but I need to maintain my ego to a certain necessary degree.
I feel if I express myself in writing more and more often, my sense of self-worth would improve a lot more.
Kelsey Rinella, besides more emotive support from David Cornberg, is a special pragmatic and funny person whose personality is completely agreeable yet without narcissism...artists tend to be narcissistic, including me, in some sense, but I express thoughts or "the self" when I "toot ma hone" (trumpet, soy trompetisto). As of now, I am expressing myself with both subject and predicate without superego objection/rejection...sigh...my life is so painful and difficult that I can't accept my life as a kid or rather, my father wouldn't accept this--I want to watch porn...that was a joke.
"If you want to be a man, date real women". Hey, man, Soy Buddhisto too, I get shy, plus, I care about anuttara samyak-sambodhi. The truth is, only starting at the Mahayana level when perfect self-control has developed on the impulses that need to be controlled or tamed can one spontaneously relate with other beings in anyway one desires, where desire means compassion or Christian love. The desire to have lust over a woman in a negative psyche-TV-set to deny the fact that one loves the woman and therefore "does not wish to kill her through sexual intercourse" is both anti-Hinayana and anti-Mahayana in my opinion.
I have the secret to runny nose: crossing the line of fear from superego data of when the superego will be crossed. If I calculate more, there are reasons not to propagate this info but I need to publicly broadcast myself while I'm still on anti-psychotics. I am just trying to be frank here.
By the way, if anyone is an expert on this, I have experienced an unusual phenomena that other's will's taking effect as a phenomena can be warded off with accumulated semen/sperm/jing, like Shaolin feats through extreme sexual energy, where anti-psych's supposed effect from experience of "memes/information" only takes place under weak sexual repression state...I wonder if every effect the drug has is due to beliefs about it that is grasped with strong psychic energy or ......placebo effect taking place where a stronger energy-center person informs the patient, this will work, non-placebos actually have no inherent effect I believe, it is all energy-karma...who can clarify this up for me?
I became the emperor of my place through being a savior with only the intent to be an attractive person to attractive women who need to delude themselves that they are relating with respect-worthy people that they are not the type that relate with interesting and fun people, Jesus Christ, though beautiful in the asura women style way of the lesser sort, can't we relax and be? I suppose that is harder than making those delicious things that are here in Taiwan...oh, magnificent, simply splendid.
If you produce something, if people keep looking or give it attention, your life will be extended, hence Buddhas propagate their dharma, name, and so on, for sake of survival, perhaps not in the physical form. Eternal life is connected with eternal love, eternal survival, eternal attention, at least for me, so that's that. Chao. Or the need for attention to survive transcended where nirmanakaya is free to be abandoned.
I used to be open-minded only to David Cornberg, but now I have to practice Pema Chodron's "open mind, open heart"--yay, love.
Signing off, Richard in less fear-based-other-conscious language than Julie and Julia (italics deliberately ignored for sake of style of tantric mode of expression, that the emotive aspect of the ignoring has meaning in experiencing not the knowledge herein contained but also the person that articulated the knowledge).
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